I don’t know why we put things off. Why we wait till the last minute. Why we are always waiting for the “right time”. Waiting, that’s the problem here. That’s the part of this that sneaks up on up when you’re not looking.
Never leave that till tomorrow, which you can do today. -Benjamin Franklin
My theory is that procrastination is born from fear. Fear of failure, of rejection, of pain. Fear of making a decision, big or small, and the results of your choices- What if its the wrong choice?
Yes, there are other forms of procrastinating. Running errands, buying new tires, doing homework- we put those things off too. We tell ourselves “I’ll do it later”, or “I’ll do it tomorrow”. Those things are small, at least at first. They don’t come with the threat of flipping you’re familiar, cozy life upside-down. The consequences are not unknown, you can prepare yourself for what you are getting yourself into. The results still suck, and I definitely don’t recommend doing this to yourself, but you know you’ll be alright.
It’s the big ones. The life changing decisions. Those are the ones that will get you. That will have you crawling under your blankets screaming, “Can’t I just think about this later??!!”. Well, let me be the bad guy… No. Don’t do that to yourself. Waiting will get you nowhere, and “the right time”, yeah, that doesn’t exist.
I know it’s scary. Trust me. I’m probably going to be reading this post to myself, for the rest of forever. The unknown is absolutely terrifying. What if I don’t like the career I’ve chosen? What if I can’t live with the person I’ve chosen to love? What if I’m wrong about where I truly believe I’m meant to be? What if I move only to find out I should have stayed? Seriously, I know the feeling. But that’s the fear talking, and fear cannot tell you what’s going to happen, it only asks questions.
“The early bird catches the worm.”
“He who hesitates is lost.”
Let’s make a deal, you and I. Let’s stop putting things off. Let’s stop waiting, because if we never go after what we want, we will never get it. We have to fight for it. We have to make our own mistakes, and learn our own lessons. We can’t pretend we haven’t been told at least once in our lives to “Seize The Day”. Waiting will never tell you what the future holds.
Are you wondering yet what these photos have to do with this post? I’ll tell you. I was born in Mount Vernon, Washington, and was moved to South Dakota at the age of three. Every summer until I turned eighteen I lived in Washington, and every time I leave it breaks my heart. I love it out there. I feel completely myself out there. I truly believe that Washington is where I belong. For my entire life I have wanted to move back, but there was always something that made me stay in South Dakota. Little excuses I tell myself to ease the homesickness. And of course, my favorite saying (I rolled my eyes as I typed that by the way) “One day, eventually, I will be home for good.”.
So you see, I’m not just making this all up. I’m serious. I’m twenty-two years old. I’m done waiting. Procrastinating is at the top of my “Quits list”, because knowing is better than wondering, and waking is better than sleeping. Even the biggest failure beats the hell out of never trying.