I have this problem with words. Funny, since here I am writing, huh? Well, it’s not so much words, as it is how I use them to explain things. Especially when I am actually talking to someone- DEFINETLY when I am talking to multiple someone-s. I think that I just over think things to much; I just want everything I say to perfectly explain what’s going on in my head. My biggest fear, not being understood.
Being an introvert, I live in my head most of the time. I seriously have my own beautiful little world up there that I sink into when reality is too much; or when it’s not enough. Being outgoing is definitely not a strength here, but it is something I truly am working at. This leads me to this very blog, because although I am a very quiet person, I still love to share.
I have all these things in my head that I want to share with people who want to listen. Every time I go to explain something, or tell a story, I find that I am interrupted and unable to finish. This has resulted in the very high speed that I talk in when I have a lot to say. As you can imagine, it can be hard to follow, and people tend to loose interest. (Or they get a huge kick out of it and laugh- it is pretty funny I will admit.) But anyways, it always leads me to the same stupid question: Am I Making Any Sense? I just want people to get me.
But you know what? Who cares?
Seriously though, does it really matter? I get me, isn’t that enough? I’m not saying that I don’t care what you think, I do. I would love for you to understand me, to get what I am getting at, but if you don’t, that’s ok too. I actually asked that question to the owner of the Love Your Pieces Project, after submitting my story to their blog, like 20 times – I was starting to annoy myself. (You can read that under their LYPblog tab.)
So, I am sick and tired of asking myself if I think I am making sense, and then hiding inside my head when I think the answer is no. That gets literally nothing done. So if you can relate to this, if I am not a lone wolf here, then let’s make a pact. Lets throw that damn question out the window, say what we think, and leave it at that. Life is too short to sit around second guessing ourselves.